Becoming more mindful of my thought process and catching self-destructive behaviours, is like Releasing the Hounds. I know I am a strong woman, but this is a force to reckoned with.
When I want something, or have an idea, I'm in drive with no sense of direction. I have no idea whether I'm going left or right. ----It's like a drug----
this happens when i go shopping....only to return the stuff I've bought because i felt guilty and it was pleasurable getting my money back---i had made the right choice----only i did this nearly everyday for months. bought and returned, bought and returned....
I've spent hundreds of dollars on healthy foods, memberships, video's, fitness equipment----DIET PILLS
i can walk 30ft and be in a fully equipped gym, that is most likely empty....but i' don't.
i have days on my own when i would rather close all the blinds and sleep all day. i can go days without doing anything. when will i figure this out?
Don't even get me started on 'returns'. Quite often I feel that I'm returning more stuff than I am buying. Although to be fair, its not so much my fault.
ReplyDeleteAnd I so wish I could spend a day relaxing ... sleeping it off. I guess a guy can dream :).
You will figure it out, the fact that you are even addressing it shows that you are taking steps in the right direction. You are a really good writer by the way.
ReplyDeleteHello dear,
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