I finally figured out what I would like to study. I have been accepted to Everest College for their Medical Lab Tech and cannot wait to get started. I got all my doccuments together, figured a schedule that is do-able with my family and then my loan fell through.
I feel like I am back to square one...urgh. How am I goin to figure this one out. I had a previous loan that I fully intend on repaying, but I thought I would be able to continue studies and add it to my existing debt. Aparently, there is much more to it than that. I'll keep you posted, but as it stands I'll be heading back to being a stay-at-home mom.
Wednesday, 2 March 2011
Dear Friend
I have been all over the place and not like travelling to exotic places, but instability everywhere. I am sick of moving all the time and uprooting my family: it breaks my heart. Now that Olivia will be starting school, I don't want her to make friends and then lose them. It's not fun to be the new girl over and over. I have always looked at relocating as a fresh start, but it's not fresh at all. I am so impulsive that I don't even think about what our family needs in a location. It's not easy to figure this out.
Being born and raised all over Ottawa nearly my whole life, makes it difficult to for me to settle in one spot. I always manage to find something wrong and can talk or write my way out of nearly anything. I feel like when things are going good I can accept the current situation, but if something falls slightly out of place I have to urge to flip EVERYTHING around. I don't like to sit in my set backs, who does? I know set backs are normal and the average family experience many, but how is it that my set backs throw me in a tail spin that I struggle so hard to get out of. I want so badly to be successful, and have a cozy home and well cared for children. It it too much to expect all of this for my life? I don't think so. Aparently I actually expect much more, but get so overwhelmed by everything I hope to accomplish that I can't even stick to one of them.
I need to pull it together. I think I might be becoming lazy or too dependant on other people. I need to grow up.
Being born and raised all over Ottawa nearly my whole life, makes it difficult to for me to settle in one spot. I always manage to find something wrong and can talk or write my way out of nearly anything. I feel like when things are going good I can accept the current situation, but if something falls slightly out of place I have to urge to flip EVERYTHING around. I don't like to sit in my set backs, who does? I know set backs are normal and the average family experience many, but how is it that my set backs throw me in a tail spin that I struggle so hard to get out of. I want so badly to be successful, and have a cozy home and well cared for children. It it too much to expect all of this for my life? I don't think so. Aparently I actually expect much more, but get so overwhelmed by everything I hope to accomplish that I can't even stick to one of them.
I need to pull it together. I think I might be becoming lazy or too dependant on other people. I need to grow up.
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